Mysteries beyond human comprehension were shared between the Father and the Son in that secret place called Gethsemane. Somehow, Jesus caught a glimpse of the horrors of Calvary that day. The suffering He was about to experience was beyond the realm of our ability to comprehend. You see, Calvary was more than physical suffering. Now don’t get me wrong, there was excruciating suffering ahead for Jesus. There was the beating at the whipping post, there was the crown of thorns and the punches of the soldiers, there were the spikes driven through His hand and feet as He was nailed to the cross, and there was the horrific suffering of suffocation as He hung for hours on the cross. That suffering was extreme but that was not even the beginning of awaited Our Lord the next day. As He prayed in the garden, the Father opened the eyes of His Son to see the price of redemption. Christ would actually take our sin upon Himself as our substitute. This sinless One would take our sinfulness upon Himself. He had to see it for Himself before He could willfully take our place. “Not My will, but let Your will be done”. This was the decision that Christ was making all alone with the Father just before His arrest. Here is something of what Spurgeon said about this holy night.
“Few had fellowship with the sorrows of Gethsemane. The majority of the disciples were not sufficiently advanced in grace to be admitted to behold the mysteries of the agony. Peter and the two sons of Zebedee, represent the few eminent, experienced saints, who may be written down as Fathers; these having done business on great waters, can in some degree measure the huge Atlantic waves of their Redeemer’s passion. To some selected spirits it is given, for the good of others, and to strengthen them for future, special, and tremendous conflict, to enter the inner circle and hear the pleadings of the suffering High Priest; they have fellowship with him in his sufferings, and are made conformable unto his death. Yet even these cannot penetrate the secret places of the Saviour’s woe… there was an inner chamber in our Master’s grief, shut out from human knowledge and fellowship. There Jesus is left alone. Here Jesus was more than ever an Unspeakable gift! Is not Watts right when he sings-
And all the unknown joys he gives,
Were bought with agonies unknown.”
Only in heaven will we begin to understand the cost of love our Savior paid when He died for us. As we reflect on the sufferings of Christ this Easter season, we have to remember the incredible love He has for us. It was more than physical suffering my Lord bore for me, He bore the brunt of my shameful past. When we begin to comprehend the beauty and horror of Calvary, only then do we become aware of the ugliness of sin, only then will we receive His forgiveness. The power of His love will led us out of the bondage of sin in this life.